You could hear her humming in the kitchen. Washing dishes,
stirring mixes, spreading frosting.
You could hear her humming in the laundry room. Loading the
washer, loading the dryer, folding the clothes.
When my mother worked she sang, whistled, but mostly hummed.
She’s nearly eighty-six now and her mind is as sharp as mine
or better.
How did she raise six children, three boys and then three
girls, and keep her sanity? There are days I wonder this, especially when I
feel like I’m losing mine.
The other day, I had one of those moments, when I thought I was on the brink. One of my kids,
who I’m convinced could be a lawyer one day, was stating her case. I’m an older
mother now, a more tired mother now. Keeping up with her twists and turns, her “But
you said last week . . .,” and remembering my own name, all at the same time,
is just too much for me sometimes. This moment was no different. She stomped
off to her room.
That’s when I plunged my hands in some soapy dish water and
began to hum. And I hummed. And I hummed. And I hummed . . . one old hymn after
another.
And the longer I hummed, the better I felt.
I smiled. I now know why my mother hummed.
How do you slow down and quiet your mind when tensions run high?
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